Limits June 25, 2009
Posted by joieiL in My thoughts.2 comments
What is our limit? If we always say to push to our limits, then how do we determine what are our limits?
Let’s say if while exercising, we push our body hard, and how do we know what is our limit? Our heart will be beating real fast and tired, it will feel so good to stop but our mind will keep pushing saying 1 more minute, 1 more push up, 1 more road, 1 more km, 1 more lap and after that 1 more, we go for another, so how do we know when will it be time to slow down and stop? If we push it beyond our limits, it might cause our heart to stop by then it will be too late.
So how do we determine what are the limits in life? It’s like walking blindfold on a mountain where we might fall off any moment. It’s like an invisible boundary that one seldom reaches near but one that our weak body and mind keep thinking that it is the limit even though we are still far from it.
Or maybe there are no limits to everything. Because when we keep doing something, we gets better and we when we gets better, we perform better which in turns makes us be able to do what we could not in the first place. Its only when we stop becoming better, when we start thinking this is our limit then do we stop improving. So I think maybe there are no limits to anything at all.
Shorter than usual June 24, 2009
Posted by joieiL in Rants.add a comment
I am not fit, kind of flabby and soft.
I am not independent, always needing help somehow.
I can’t form coherent sentence whenever I want.
I can’t speak properly or articulate words correctly.
I am not smart or intelligent; therefore I can’t discuss abstract topics, discuss deep thoughts and am able to form any opinions of my own.
I am everything that the boyfriend dislikes. It makes me even shorter than what I usually am and all I know is I am feeling pretty lousy at the moment.
“you and me, we never shared our mysteries.
that’s why i loved you,
that’s why you’d never care.”
-24letters-
Fried Sotong June 9, 2009
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Did I mention I was going to resign? I did and it’s kind of irritating to go lunch with my colleagues the moment the letter was submitted. They keep trying to dig out the “TRUE” reason why I left. Actually it’s just the normal reasons why people quit their job, to find a better job, higher pay somewhere else. The working environment there kind of sucks big time even though I have flexibility in work, the bosses there I think kind of have no respect for their workers.
Well, do you guys know of anyone hiring? Remember me! 
Much ado about nothing May 30, 2009
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We bought the tickets to Much Ado about Nothing which is a play by William Shakespeare. It was an open seating play held in Fort Canning Park where we are subjected to whatever weather the sky decided to give us. Show was due to start at 7.30pm but due to the wet weather it was delayed close to an hour.
The English spoken in the show was slightly too slang and I was unable to understand some part of it. Adrian Pang was quite funny in the play and watching a play in the park was quite a novel idea. Show was 3hours long and we did not prepare much food hence sister’s boyfriend came to the rescue and ordered pizza hut. If not we would have starved to death which will affect the enjoyment of the play. (Stomach will growl and disturb everyone around us) However if we decide to watch another play at the park, we will be better prepared with food as well as big umbrella or ponchos. Zixuan said that next time he will bring his field pack along as it was reminiscent of his army days seating on grass with rain.
The boyfriend was upset with me in the morning and he almost did not want to watch the play with me. Thank god, we settled it and he turn up for the play. My eyes were even smaller than usual after an afternoon of crying jag. L
Everybody seems to enjoy the play so it was all right. I was at first apprehensive that they might not enjoyed the play and blame me for wasting money. However all’s well that ends well.
After the play, we parted company with sister and her boyfriend. We headed over to Geylang for dim sum. He wanted to show me those prostitutes that worked there however each time we were there, there were police and most of the prostitutes were hiding. We then went jogging in the middle of the night to work off our pizza and late night supper.
I was really upset with the boyfriend and myself that day. It was much ado about nothing but luckily everything turns out well.
Upset May 29, 2009
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My company kind of pisses me off big time. They came out with charity tickets and asked us to sell it. That is fine with me but the problem was that everybody issued with the amount of tickets have to SELL IT if not they have to pay it out of their own pocket. And when asked, what if we can’t sell it? The answer was it not good, and you have to sell it. What kind of answer is this? It feels like a threat. Oh, its recession, so if you don’t sell it, you will lose your job? Another thing that pisses me off was that everybody in my department was issued different number of tickets and I got 40tickets while others got 10, 20, or 30. Only one of my colleague and me got 40 each which are unfair as my boss himself got even less than that. I am super pissed off. Yes, so what if other company do that, do you have to do that? I hate places where people force you to do this or do that. What is this compared to a jail? This is a free society and you have to keep using the threat of losing a job over other people head. There was some charity walk not long ago and they insisted that everybody has to turn up. I don’t’ give a shit and did not even turn up. You just give me a pay but I don’t owe you my life.
I am very upset with my boyfriend
