I’ve been poisoned by my brother. He licked his cup of tea (supposedly that will clear our body of toxins) and I picked it up to drink without noticing it was his cup.
Chop off my tongue please!
I lost my ezlink card which has approximately 150 bucks in it. My heart aches real badly. :(
$150 can buy me many meals
Purchase 15movies tickets
Buy clothes.
Damn upset with my careless self
I get seriously annoyed when people borrow and read my books without taking care of it. After the effort I took while reading and after reading, people just bend wide open my book causing lines in my book spine. Food/boogie stains, folded corners, and wrinkled edges make me grind my teeth when I get them back.
When I say, sorry, I don’t have the book when I do have it means you are on my ban list.
I am not fit, kind of flabby and soft.
I am not independent, always needing help somehow.
I can’t form coherent sentence whenever I want.
I can’t speak properly or articulate words correctly.
I am not smart or intelligent; therefore I can’t discuss abstract topics, discuss deep thoughts and am able to form any opinions of my own.
I am everything that the boyfriend dislikes. It makes me even shorter than what I usually am and all I know is I am feeling pretty lousy at the moment.
“you and me, we never shared our mysteries.
that’s why i loved you,
that’s why you’d never care.”
-24letters-
My company kind of pisses me off big time. They came out with charity tickets and asked us to sell it. That is fine with me but the problem was that everybody issued with the amount of tickets have to SELL IT if not they have to pay it out of their own pocket. And when asked, what if we can’t sell it? The answer was it not good, and you have to sell it. What kind of answer is this? It feels like a threat. Oh, its recession, so if you don’t sell it, you will lose your job? Another thing that pisses me off was that everybody in my department was issued different number of tickets and I got 40tickets while others got 10, 20, or 30. Only one of my colleague and me got 40 each which are unfair as my boss himself got even less than that. I am super pissed off. Yes, so what if other company do that, do you have to do that? I hate places where people force you to do this or do that. What is this compared to a jail? This is a free society and you have to keep using the threat of losing a job over other people head. There was some charity walk not long ago and they insisted that everybody has to turn up. I don’t’ give a shit and did not even turn up. You just give me a pay but I don’t owe you my life.
I took my driving test today and passed. My tester was one fierce guy, and he was silent througout the whole test except the end when he asked me quite fiercely why did I not cross the pedestrian crossing. There was a pedestrian there that’s why! -__-“
Overslept today and when I woke up it was like 1.30pm. Warm up was at 2.15pm and the test started at 3.45. I was actually not nervous during the waiting time and test, but only after the whole test was when I become nervous waiting for the results. Even the lady waiting for the results commented that my tester is very fierce. The duration of my test was only like less than 30minutes which kind of worried me as I’ve heard from friends that if your test duration is short, most likely you will not make it.
I think I was quite lucky, as I remember my instructor telling me before that route 5 is one of the easiest route around.
Called up my Dad and mother once I passed and my Dad was pretty pleased with me. Dad bought us to The Little Grill at Jurong as today was also my brother first day of school in NYP. Western food is not that bad there, and I’ve got to say, my mother black pepper chicken chop was nice. The fries were quite dry, but the food was quite good. Better than char grill.
Euphoria filled me when I got my result and after telling my parents I wanted to share my happy news with mr ng. But then again, he doesn’t even remember I have test today, even my friends message me well wishes in the morning. Actually am not angry at him, just that my sister went Malaysia for 4days and once she’s back, her boyfriend immediately bought whatever she was craving for and have been seeing her for almost daily. Well my boyfriend can go without seeing me for days and weeks and it’s just like that. When it’s like that, I just feel like, nah, don’t need tell him. But end up, I told him. I feel like the girl that people only love because i am available at the moment. Why do i sound bored when he call? Cause he only call when i’m feeling pissed cause he forget me again. When he call me just randomly, i don’t sound that way. Is it just me or what? Why does other girls, my sister gets guys that likes/love them and treat them so well, and my bfs are people whom i love more than they do?
Saw this quote on facebook just now and it feels quite apt at the moment”there once was a little girl who never knew love until a boy broke her HEART”.
Mummy and aunt was like drive slowly is the best and I was like please, I got deducted points for driving slowly and they went LOL. Hahaha
When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that’s of worth
That will bless your heart
I threw a hissy fuss over the same issue over again, and this time the boyfriend said that I’ve become more possessive. I just don’t want to be remembered only when he thinks I’m angry then do he contact me, if not it’s a once a week affair. I am possessive in which sense? Just because I only ask that he not only contacts me when necessary? It will always seem like I’m nit picking on him, always finding faults with him. When I’m unhappy it shows in my face but to him even if he has a problem with him, he never raises it with me at all.
However he did make an effort to come find me for dinner which makes me feels bad for the fuss I threw and good because I got to see him. Even sister was surprised to see him which shows how frequent he come and find me. I don’t need daily, but just a once in a while to feel appreciated. It will no doubt go back to before as usual and this will be something I’ve to accept that it is just him.
Started working at the show flat and only need to start work at 10am which is good as I can wake up at 9am. Work is supposed to be till 6pm however always towards the end, there will be more to do. Receptionist duty is a drag in the afternoon and has been informed by Raymond that I have to work this weekend full day and mostly next weekend. Then I was informed at the very last minute that I don’t have to work today, Wednesday. Quite pissed off about this day off because I was informed so late and I have to reschedule some of my personal stuff. Then I might not be able to meet Zixuan for 2 bloody long weeks, half a month kind of sadden me. My boyfriend is not the sort that will find me anytime so it means only during the weekend is the time where I will see him.
No computer at work which means I can’t surf net and msn, doing boring receptionist duty and doing tedious options form is killing me. I miss arranging my own schedule at work.
